My breakfast excursion this morning has me concerned.
Dexcom, so I opted for the combo bolus. I did a 50/50 split over an hour, and set it up while sitting in my car, so I'd have a little bit of time for it to get to work before I got to my desk and could dig in.
That was an hour and a half ago, and right now I'm 108. Here's my question: should I be concerned or happy?
Even with a "great" BG like that, I can't help but worry that it means I'm about to drop too low any minute now. A high-ish carb breakfast, which includes coffee, will normally send me up anywhere from 50 to 100 mg/dL, so I'm not sure what to think of this.
How sad is that? A reading like 108 is pretty rad - but I can't enjoy it, because I'm too worried about the circumstances surrounding it. I guess I'm never satisfied - the future is too uncertain, diabetically speaking, to have the luxury of feeling that way.
I'm also right in the middle of that two-hour calibration window with my Dexcom, so I can't watch what's happening. I just have to go by how I feel, and test every half hour. It feels like I'm trying to walk across a highway with a blindfold and noise-cancelling headphones on.
Normally, I'm just wearing the blindfold.