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"Nope, nope... that doesn't have anything to do with diabetes. It's just a normal thing some people have."
For the last several months, I've noticed an occasional floater in my field of vision. It isn't always there, nor is it always in the same spot in my vision.
The only times I see it are at work; specifically, sometimes when I'm looking at my computer screen. But, not always then. It's just this bean-shaped blob that moves around with what I'm looking at.
Frankly, I'd been a bit scared about it.
My opthalmologist had seen a couple of microaneurysms in each eye shortly before I started using a CGM, which would have been in 2009. The technical term is mild non-proliferative retinopathy. In subsequent visits, he's told me that they've been healing/shrinking/running away scared, which is super, but it still scared the crap out of me that something was happening to my eyes. That I wasn't somehow immune to complications, after all.
I know it's a mild complication, but it had felt very major to me.
When I started seeing this floater, my mind understandably went to Worst Case Scenario - that 25 years of diabetes had finally started to take its toll. That my recent not-as-tight-as-before control was to blame. That I was to blame.
But I also told myself - if this was diabetes-related, wouldn't I be seeing it all the time? I guess that's the line of thinking that had me keeping my original yearly exam date, instead of scheduling the appointment for much earlier.
I didn't mind putting off the answer. If it was bad, I didn't want to hear it quite yet. (Yeah, I know.)
So when Dr. D asked me if I'd had any changes in my vision, I told him. I described what had been happening, and when. He took a look.
"Oh, no. No, your eyes look great. Actually, it looks like they're still getting better. That thing isn't diabetes-related. Some people just get those from time to time; you get just the right lighting or look a certain direction, and they show up for a little bit. Nothing to worry about."
|Their opthalmologist must use
really strong dilation drops.
And as for the title of this post - something must have been written down in my file, because when we got to the part where the thing touches your eye (I'm very technical with my terminology here), he had an assistant come in to hold my cranium against the head holster. Seriously; she applied force so that I couldn't react! (She was very nice and gentle with me, though. No rough-housing.)
I'm a jumper, apparently.