Thursday, March 10, 2011


When I'm tired, I load up on coffee and loud music.

When I find I've made a mistake, I try to laugh it off instead of berating myself for it. I tell myself that, for most things, I'm making a way-bigger deal out of it than anyone else is. In fact, they may not have even noticed.

When my stomach decides to make really loud digest-y noises, I somehow think that typing extra loud on my keyboard will somehow cover up the noise, and distract my co-workers from noticing.

When someone's view of me far surpasses how I feel about myself, I tell myself that there must be some good reason they have come to that conclusion, and I try to live up to that view. I also try to not be totally embarrassed and intent on the possibility that I might let someone down.

When something awkward happens amongst a group, I'll be the first to sing out, "Awwwwwkwaaaaard!" in a comical way to try and ease the tension. (It works only sometimes.)

When I don't have time to wash my hair, it's going up in a hopefully-disguised ponytail/bun/up-do thing.

When I think about the parts of my life that haven't turn out the way I thought they would, I might get upset. But then I remind myself that what's done is done, and I think about all of those parts of my life that have surpassed what I expected them to be. I remind myself that I'm still becoming who I am, because we're eternally "becoming", aren't we? I remind myself that each day can be a new start, another step forward, a do-over. The past does not always predict or dictate the future.

And when I stumble (which I feel happens to me more often than the average bear, both literally and figuratively), I try to remember Bruce Wayne's butler Alfred's wise advice: "Why do we fall? So that we might learn to pick ourselves up."

Why hello, there, 332 mg/dL.
It's been a while.


  1. I totally needed this post! I've been beating myself up quite a bit lately with the up and down blood sugars I've been having. It's good to remember that each day can be a new start...thanks!

  2. What a wonderful blog. I needed a positive outlook today. Thanks for being you :)

  3. Kim, this is such a great post. Thank you for writing it and offering some positivity (unicorn sprinkles??) to what seemed to be shaping up to be a Stumbling Man kind of day... This motivates me to move forward and do as Alfred says. Looking forward to finally having a chance to meet and share awesomeness in person this weekend!

  4. It's a stumbling kind of time, right now, I think. You are so right. I watched Finding Nemo this weekend w/ Ms. Diva, and giggled at "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming" from the little blue fish that Ellen voiced. I tried to take it to heart...we have to just keep swimming, and reminding each other to do so too. Thanks for the good post!

  5. The past is never a predictor of our futures! Good post.

  6. Thank-you, no really, thank-you!! Need a lil positivity lately.

  7. I just stumbled in here after tripping over my daughter's pancreas.

    Whew. I needed this!